post war

last evening

i sat down

on a warm summer terrace

with my decaf iced frappe

and my bestie

and we made love to each other

through thoughts

through dreams

through our relationships

it's really a beautiful thing

to crack my heart open

for her

and feel the breeze

shine some sunlight on it

have the hummingbirds

humm

have the bees

buzz

have the trees

sway

have the night

fall upon us

as easy as dusk turns into dawn

and as my heart

breaks

open

for her

she hums her a tune

she sings her a song

to help her silences

not feel so silent

to help the lump in her throat

wash away

to reflect her love

back

and then we suited up

with our collective

fullness

for the task at hand

pouring

our support

out for our fellow

lover

who decided

enough was enough

and that she is getting

back to the one

she was meant to love

at this time

herself.

and tears went from flowing

to not

and awkward laughter

turned into truth

and the trifecta

once again

reigns

love upon each other

for that

is what it's for

love to reign

upon

each

other.

and in my post war

i am grateful

for it all

the war

the struggle

the mistakes

the heavy-heartedness

the sighs

the long and lonesome nights

it woke me up

to see the beauty that is my life

it woke me up to the

blessings

it woke me up to

what has been here all along

me.

and that even if i'm not okay sometimes

i will be okay most of the time

and my lovers

[in all senses of the word]

love me for exactly who i am today

they don't love

the potential

they love the present

and that my Mom and Keith will always love me

for it all.

because they were the ones

that taught me

to strive

to give

to never give-up

to hold out

to look up

at ferris wheels

to play that game where

you look for animals

that have the general look

and shape of clouds

to sometimes cry

and to always

remember

the one that i came here to love.....

myself.

Rick Owens

Rick Owens -

(born 1962). is an American fashion designer hailing from California, celebrated for his avante-garde and subversive eye. Since 2003, Rick Owens has lived and worked out of Paris. - wikipedia

guys......drooooooooool.  the furniture.....not so much, but, the jacket - MOS DEF.  and those boots.  oh ma gawd.  i think i'm having a hot flash.

Calvin Klein interviews Marc Jacobs...

okay, anyone who knows me, knows that i luuurrvvee Marc Jacobs.  i love him for so many reasons.  here are a few. 
he has had some major road bumps in his careers.  in fact others might refer to them as failures. an ill-advised gunge based collection designed for Perry Ellis that flopped.  HUGE.  this is the biggest one.  but mostly i love him because i feel as though he is the Andy Warhol of our time.  of my time.  his vision is uncompromising.  his creativity is shameless.  he is unapologetic with his artistic direction.  and he has a way of communicating subtly and not-so-subtly irony and satire that i have not seen.  it is unparalelled.  he communicates all of this through his collections.  he is truly incendiary.
now, onto the interview.  in September's issue of Harper's Bazaar, Calvin Klein interviews Marc Jacobs.  what i liked about it was that he is so honest.  he doesn't ever sound pretentious.  and his life and career is completely based around his needs and desires.  he talks about his relationship with food and exercise.  which used to be a bone of contention for him in his younger years. 
furthermore, he comments on his roles in all three of his empires; Mar Jacobs, Marc by Marc Jacobs and the creative director of Louis Vuitton.  most notably, that his role with Louis Vuitton is somewhat of an alter ego.  that while in Paris, he slips himself into a different mind set and how the landscape and his surroundings help him do that.  like actors and actresses do with submerging themselves into roles.  in someone else's head.  and what gets them to that place.
but the most inspiring part to me, is that he never wants to be defined.  in the way that all fashion wants to define fashion designers.  his mind and heart are open to anything that may tickle his fancy.  he talks a bit about taking something that he hates (Brocade in this case), and using it to his advantage.  overcoming adversity despite our baggage.  despite our prejudice.  he is a truly beautiful, iconic person.  his ideas.  his mind.  his lack of care for others.  we could all learn a little bit from the man who has Spongebob Squarepants tattooed on his body.  among other things.....
here is the full article

"what I prefer is that even if someone feels hedonistic, they don't look it. Curiosity about sex is much more interesting to me than domination. ... My clothes are not hot. Never. Never." - Marc Jacobs wikipedia

Retro Super Future

pretty please.  look at em'!  ain't they beauties.  now, when it comes to eyewear, i'm always tried and true.  black over ANYTHING else.  but these are just to scrumptous to pass by.  Retro Super Future

September Issue

so - as far as i can tell - the 'it' shoe of the season would be these tricked out Balenciaga shoes.  the colour blockers dream du jour.  or shall i say du season.  a sweet transgression from the archetype of what an oxford should look like.  what i think is king about them, is that they look deconstructed.  the lack of flow makes them flow in a weird way.  like that whole, it's so ugly it's cute thing.  except this ugly pug turns out to be a cool few thousands of dollars.  you got some of that just lying around for your vying affection of that shoe fetish?

 another thing that i love about the 'September Issue' is the launch of the new ad campaigns.  the above is a Tommy Hilfiger one.  dubbed the 'ultimate tail-gate' ad.  a fictitious family all dressed in dapper Tommy clothes.  now,  i'm not the hugest Tommy fan per se, but i respect the direction that they are going in.  kinda like the poor man's Ralph Lauren.  or even the mid-range Michael Kors.  cu dos Tommy marketers. 

 Pierre Hardy for The Gap.  orgasmo.  seriously lovers.  check ca.  these babys are beauties.  the rumblings are that they will be available in stores sometime in October starting at a cool $150.  i peeped these bad boys in the 'Black Magic', black pant campaigns that they did.  furthermore, i like that mass retailers are starting to understand vision and artistic direction can make you a dollar...rather than just homogenized styling and colour palettes.

look at this gorgeous androgyny at its best.  her name is Lara Stone.  and trust me babies, she is bodacious.  she is considered a 'full-figured' model.  see picture below.  baby steps i suppose.  and Calvin Klein is starting to hit his stride.  his silhouettes are just starting to be refined and articulate exactly what his heart wants to say.  at least that's what i see.  he struggled in his freshman and sophmore years, but now, experience has aged him in the most beautiful way.  including his choice in models and simplicity.  which is what Calvin Klein is based on.  simplicity and artistic direction above all else.  forget the corny jean ads.  rise above and claim your space on that sophisticated bench of the fashion of the ready to wear variety.

as far as Lara Stone goes.....there is this big uproar about gap-toothed models resurging into the limelight.  as if it needs to be discussed.  Lauren Hutton carved that piece of land with her bare hands.  and no one can touch her.  she is gorgeous.  even now.  especially now.  and thank god for imperfections, or what they consider imperfections.  speaking of, there is also an article in Vogue's September Issue about bodacious models.  again, do we even have to discuss this?  as far as i'm concerned, it's been a long time coming.  let's re-define beauty people.  respond to it.  why?  because you can relate....just as much as i can.  and i do and have for a while.  teach your little ladies that anorexia is not the ideal......ok, i'm letting this post get away from me.  you get the point.

Lauren Hutton

Lara Stone

so, there's your daily dose.  of me and my thoughts.  sorry for my absence lately.....but falling in love can be a little time consuming.....much love.  xoxo

Hunter

when i don't know what to wear, i wear these.  with pride.  they feel like home.  i think i was wearing boots in utero.  seriously.  my mother can attest to that.  i have the most incredibly affinity for boots.  all kinds.  but, they really, always, fit my personality.  i am a boot gal.  don't get me wrong - i LOVE to throw on a pair of heels with the best of them....but really, my 'go-to' footwear choice will always be boots.  long live the most casual boot i have ever owned and loved; Hunter Originals.  they're nothing fancy, but they are me.  plain old rain boots that compliment most, and flatter some.  when i envision my outfits, i imagine what they would look like with these boots.  always.  obsession noted.

these babies came to me about a year ago....via present from Mumsie for my birthday.  yay for me!  they are a twist to the old fav's, but a little more sleek.  plus the lining is much warmer than the originals.  neoprene.  they are such a dream. ~heart~

wedge love just in time for Fall

Jessica Simpson

Givenchy

Topshop

Aldo

Michael Kors

unknown

Bebe Hannah

Joe's Jeans

Acne

i could really go on forever.....but i will leave it at that for now.  enjoy kiddies....have a shoegasm for Mama.

pretty gifts from amazing friends....

my dear friend gave me this gift yesterday.  goo.  except the one she gave me is black, not white.  there's nothin' like a little Marc by Marc Jacobs to brighten someones day.....except maybe the Sangria that ensued therein after the gift giving....ugh.  rough morning.  i'll deal.  it was a sweet gesture and an even sweeter evening...thank you doll!  much love.

....now, if she may stumble upon this in the sample room.....i would mos def sell my soul or at least bribe her to gift it to me a little...ha ha ha

MICHAEL KORS Golden Oversized Runway Watch

look at this beautiful piece of hardware people!  you know what makes me feel better when i feel sad?  stuff.  shopping.  materialism.  maybe i am the Princess of the rubber tire county with this gorgeous bobble on.  oh Michael Kors - whisper sweet nothings in my ear.

the pendulum swings both ways

Play:  Post-War - M. Ward

i wish it would rain

and take away this heavy-hearted feeling

that has taken shape in my heart

i feel disconnected

from my friends

from my family

communicating via

emails

broken text messages

misshapen phone calls

messages

passed on through

messages

feelings conveyed

through online social networking

websites

notes written

on very small parchment

given to fireflies

to carry

the messages of love

like a stork to

a new mother

listening to elliott smith

dreaming of a

different world

where my head

wouldn't trip me up

where my hardships

felt easier

where

all the people that i love

surrounded me

more often then

they do

now

a world

where

my hurt feelings

didn't navigate

my every decision

heavy hearted

heavy hearted

heavy hearted

CHRISTOPHER LEE SAUVÉ

'LONG LIVE MCQUEEN' - a part of Christopher Lee Sauve's T-Shirt Collection.  Dreamy.  i wanna.....

New York-based artist fashion impresario CHRISTOPHER LEE SAUVÉ is a momma’s boy. Whether he’s drawing inspiration from punk nuevo Brooklyn street kids, or his idol Andy Warhol, this Canadian-born designer always looks back to his mother for inspiration. “When I was a child, in the early 80’s, she would create her own over-sized, silk-screened, bold-graphic t-shirts,” recalls the artist from his Brooklyn studio, “she would cut and rip the neck and wear them as elegant evening dresses. It was revolutionary.”

Gabriella Marina Gonzalez: Victorian Sci-Fi Surgery

Gabriella Marina Gonzalez  materialism at its best.  yes please.  double hearts and drool.  even that beautiful wolf patiently awaiting her next command.  this is from her A/W 10 collection titled:  Victorian Sci-Fi Surgery check ca her blog as well.

sunday morning

they sleep
comfy and warm under the covers
her and him
the two that keep my world
on it's axis

today
i listen to Billie Holiday
and think that there is not another
time
that i have felt so
at peace
inside
my heart

stillness

peace

she fought
and she cried
and she pleaded
for some space
inside the bars
made of ivory
and coral

space
to expand
and contract
breath and exhale
some convex to her concave
interlaced
fingers
and toes
hair let down
socks off
slumber

and the change came on
like the night
slow
and easy
but about as
subtle as a wrecking ball

just in time
for my fist to
release its
tension
in order to open up

to hold
someone else's
hand

isn't she lovely....

"Go home, take a paper bag, cut some eye holes out of it. Put it over your head, get undressed and look at yourself in the mirror. Really evaluate where your strengths and weaknesses are. And be honest." - Joan Harris from Mad Men

i was on the bus this morning and saw this girl from the bus heading towards the metro.  'i got a thing for them big body benzes it dulls my senses' she had bootay for miles.  and it was fantastic.  everything about her ensemble was immaculate.  the blouse.  perfect.  the trousers.  the colour palette.  even down to the nail polish and the navy jacket she has draped over her arm.  impressed.  i was.  really refreshing way to start off the week.  gorgeous skin and pleated trousers.  a woman after my own heart.

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your apartment

so, there's this place

that i used to go

to escape my own head

to conquer my demons

and you were always there

to listen to my thoughts

and wax poetic about sex,

boys and all things complicated

and not so complicated

i found myself here.

inside these rooms

inside your safe space

the one that you provided for

us all

to cry

to laugh

to drink

down the wine and the spirits

that had been cultivated here.

and were necessary

......

at the time

and now that you are gone

i am not sad to see you go

i am happy

for the new space that you

are creating for yourself

and i am thankful

that i had the chance

to experience

'the event

of people

playing music

in a room'

the music of friendship

the music of the kindred

the music

was bold as love

just as you

are.

much love.

much respect.

Mother Mother

ok fine - i know, i know that this band is brilliant.  and i am so slow on the uptake.  but this band is brilliant.  Mother Mother

Vancouver Canada’s Mother Mother are generating much recognition with their original approach to modern pop/rock music; a beautifully bent portrait of vocal harmony, clever, offbeat lyricism, and dynamic instrumentation. Their sound is best encapsulated on their sophomore album, O My Heart, produced by Howard Redekopp (Tegan and Sara, The New Pornographers).

With considerable accolades and success in their native Canada as well as substantial headway made in the US, in 2010 Mother Mother turns their sights onto the UK and Europe with a spring release of O My Heart on Last Gang Records (ADA/Warner). They will also be recording the follow up to their acclaimed sophomore album with a tentative fall release in North America. 2010 promises to be a fantastic year for Mother Mother.

that is an excerpt from their press kit on their website.  hit them up on twitter too.  to say that this band is a breath of fresh air would be redundant....but as you all know, i have conviction and powers of persuasion.  seriously.  give this band a listen.  i promise, you won't be disappointed.  the perfect mix of indie rock with a serious edge. the vocals and guitar riffs are cutting and run deep.  won't go comparing them to bands, 'cause i just think you will get the wrong idea.  perfect solo driving music or getting ready to go out music.  and y'all know how much of a music snob/elitist i am.  so just do it!  love this band.  and they are from my hometown.  Van-city bitches.  these are the bands that i dream about....and so will you.