8.30.2011

Der Kuss


Der Kuss (The Kiss) - Gustav Klimt ~ 1907

The Kiss (original Der Kuss) was painted by Gustav Klimt, and is probably his most famous work. He began work on it in 1907 and it is the highpoint of his so-called 'Golden Period'. It depicts a couple, in various shades of gold and symbols, sharing a kiss against a bronze background.

When he painted The Kiss Klimt was 45 and still lived at home with his mother and two unmarried sisters - but behind the respectable facade he was a man with a ferocious sexual appetite. Klimt fathered at least three illegitimate children and probably many more. He was obsessed by women and he had a fixation with redheads. It is no surprise that the woman in The Kiss has red hair. According to writer Frank Whitford: "Together the man and the woman form the shape of a penis and I think that is intentional - it's about sex and about the fulfillment of sex between a man and a woman." [1]

Two figures are situated at the edge of a flowered escarpment. The man is wearing neutral colored rectangles and a crown of vines; the woman wears brightly colored tangent circles and flowers in her hair. The couple’s embrace is enveloped by triangular vining and a veil of concentric circles.
Similarly juxtaposed couples appear in both Klimt’s Beethoven Frieze and Stoclet Frieze.

In The Kiss, Klimt depicted a couple locked in an embrace. The rest of the painting dissolves into shimmering, extravagant flat patterning. This patterning has clear ties to Art Nouveau and to the Arts and Crafts movement and also evokes the conflict between two- and three-dimensionality intrinsic to the work of Degas and other modernists. Paintings such as The Kiss were visual manifestations of fin-de-siecle spirit because they capture a decadence conveyed by opulent and sensuous images.

Some think[2] that Klimt and his beloved companion Emilie Flöge modeled for the masterpiece. Another suggestion has been that she was a model called 'Red Hilda.' There is strong visual evidence that she is the model for 'Woman with feather boa' , 'Goldfish' and 'Danaë'. She told her nephew that she was the woman in 'The Kiss'. Nothing is certain.

Klimt's use of gold had been hugely influenced by a trip he had made to Italy in 1903. He went to Ravenna where he saw the Byzantine mosaics in the Church of San Vitale. For Klimt the flatness of the mosaics and their lack of perspective and depth only enhanced their golden brilliance and he started to make unprecedented use of gold and silver leaf in his own work. [3]

The Kiss is a discreet expression of Klimt’s emphasis on eroticism and the liberation therein. The Kiss falls in line with Klimt’s exploration of fulfillment and the redeeming, transformative power of love and art.[citation needed] The Kiss deviates from Klimt’s frequent portrayal of woman as the lascivious femme fatale.

The piece is currently at the Österreichische Galerie Belvedere museum, which is housed in the Belvedere palace, in Vienna, Austria.

Gustav Klimt and "The Kiss" were selected as the main motif for a collectors' coin, the 100 euro gold The Painting coin issued on 5 November 2003. The obverse depicts Klimt in his studio with two unfinished masterpieces on easels, while the reverse shows "Der Kuss" (The Kiss).

The 3D bronze representation of painting (made by Russian sculptor Aleksander Taratynov ) are installed in the Oranienbaum park.[4]

I have always been drawn to this painting.  As cheesy as it seems to adore an artists most popular piece.  I love it.  Even though I am, inherently, always, seeking the hidden gems.  The B Sides.  It's in my muscle memory to do that.  Seek that which has been discarded or untouched.

I digress.

I remember seeing images of it when I was a child.  Responding to the golden tones.  Dreaming of one day when I was old enough to be in an embrace that feels the way that painting looks.  And now that I'm older.....I will remember my young self and whisper to her on the winds of time and change and say: one day sweetness.....it will feel like this.  No, not like anything you could even imagine.  Better.

I belong to no man
I am a manless woman
With little to no patience for games
And less patience for uncertainty about me

I am imperfectly satisfied to belong to no one
And rely solely upon my self

In this moment

But sometimes, when I dream
As I sleep
And smile
To look back on the years that I have been alive
Thinking of the warm spaces that I have shared
With lovers
On a Sunday morning
Early
When you wake, still half asleep at 6am
To touch
And laugh at each other's bloody horrible breath
And my face nuzzles into the empty space
Between your shoulder and skull
Our legs and bodies
Tangled in between the sheets
Tangled in between each other

Which is not to say that I live in a manless world
The men that have made the cut
Into my life.........and not out
As of late
Completely delightful creatures
Making it easier
To remember
That men
Are just as complicated and fucked up as women
With less babble babble
And more
Blunt
And that they have soft spots too
Behind their teeth, when I reach for their scars


I know places we can go babe

Harness
My affection
And cuddle
And softness
For those that let me
Be soft
For those that let me
Explain
Away, away, away
Explain
Here, here, here

Afraid not
Are those that trust my intensity
Is real
Afraid not
Are those that understand my intensity
For the life that I have lived
And felt
Rolls Deep

Like a nervous system
Of memories
That pour out in the form of conversation
And wicked musings on a myriad of boxes
That contain light
With
Thoughts and words which is all that excites me anymore
'Cos
One trick pony's
Are old fucking news, Son

Ya dig?

"The Kiss is a discreet expression of Klimt’s emphasis on eroticism and the liberation therein. The Kiss falls in line with Klimt’s exploration of fulfillment and the redeeming, transformative power of love and art."

8.28.2011

A Few Shots

ACORNS!!!

When we marry - maybe we'll marry on this street......ya think?

I couldn't NOT.

Laundry Day

Haider Ackerman





Fall RTW 2011.  These pieces look like they feel like a million bucks when you have them on.  Like, you would feel transformed when you slip into them.  Drool.

Lately


Someone asked me today, 'How was your weekend babe? What did you do?'.
To which I wanted to reply my sob story about the hard time I've been having......lately. 
Instead
I replied with the events:
Moksha yoga on Friday
Breakfast with some dear friends on Saturday morning
Late night walk/bench sit with one of my most favorite women (who tends to save me.....only when I don't ask for saving - which is the best part)
And, today, I cooked spaghetti sauce
All day

Recipe:
1.5 lbs lean ground beef
3 small onions diced
3 medium sized carrots grated
1 package of grape tomatoes
4 hot Italian sausages cubed
1 whole red pepper cubed
1 head of broccoli
2 3/4 full jars of vegetable pasta sauce
3/4 cup of water
Salt & Pepper to taste

I cooked this sauce all day
Starting with sweating the onions and ground beef and slowly adding the vegetables. 
Chopping
Peeling
Discarding the rotten bits

Intermittently
Stirring the pot

Smelling the aromas all day
The whole apartment filling with my labor of love
Simmering

In continuation of my Sunday - I watched/currently watching movies galore. 
Up In The Air
Footloose
Flashdance
Nanny McPhee (don't hate)
Under The Tuscan Sun (thanks Jess for reminding me how much I LOVE that movie)
Thelma & Louise
American Beauty
Meet Joe Black
Easy A

I know, I know......some pretty girlie choices.......but, ya know, sometimes, that's how I roll.

The above photo is from Under The Tuscan Sun.  It is articulating a moment for the character, that I can deeply relate to, about her own personal journey and how she took chances to get to where she envisioned - but couldn't define.  Until she did.  And then, there it was. 
Feeling like it always meant to feel.
But new, like a shiny red penny.
Full of hope.
Full of life.
Full of humility and blessings.

Even though - I'm not 'there' - whatever that means - I know one day I'm gonna be.  And that when I reach that point, I will have a whole new set of goals and hopes so that I will never get bored.  And that I know that next week, next month, next year, I will not be in the same place as I was yesterday.

And that is the thought I will fall asleep to tonight.
That
and
How blessed I am
To be alive
Seeing beauty in the world
In the most unsuspecting places
With the most unsuspecting moments that fill me with joy.

Like cooking homemade spaghetti sauce on a blustery Sunday and a nice long cuddle with my dog.

The heart of life is beautiful....

8.21.2011

Brace Yourself

Miansai by Michael Saiger

Jack Vartanian
Kora Designs

Kora Designs
Beautiful bracelets.  Today it is raining in Montreal.  I kind of love it.  Happy Sunday babies!

8.16.2011

My Best Friend - A Declaration of Love


This is my best friend.  And she's gonna hate that I chose this picture.....but, my love, you are beautiful and this picture was taken by yours truly and I love it.

I was overwhelmed with love for this incredible woman today.  We often talk hourly via email every day.  It helps me stomach the things that are grinding me lately.  She helps me in so many ways.  She believes in me when I don't believe in myself.  She reminds me to be open to love when I've sworn off relationships forever.  And, her person, her beautiful emotions are the Christmas time feeling I get.....except every day.  The below is one of the threads she sent me today.

Dear Betty,

My friend Amanda and I are really close.  We share lots of our emotions with each other and feel the same way on many topics.  Sometimes I feel like she is the best person in the world and that us together in the world is an unstoppable force. I also once in awhile graze her breasts with my arm on purpose, but she thinks it's just an accident.  Recently, I've started thinking that this might be because she's so hot that even though I'm not gay (?), I wanna be on her....i mean, I wanna get with her.  I have lots of friends that I'm close to and I'm really grateful for all my friendships, but oh Betty, this one is different. Sometimes I wonder if there's something wrong with me because I feel so strongly about my hot, sexy, kick-ass, bitch of a girlfriend.
Betty,
Is it weird that I'm kinda in love with her?  Dear Betty, do you believe that we could be friends forever?
and Betty, do you think it's wrong that I sometimes graze her boobs and butt because I kinda think they're hot?? Oh Betty - am I gay, or is my friend just really fucking cool?

Sincerely,
Friendilicious.

And I feel like I am falling in love with this woman deeper and deeper.  Like the Ani DiFranco song 'Falling Is Like This'.

You give me that look that's like laughing
with liquid in your mouth
like you're choosing between choking
and spitting it all out
like you're trying to fight gravity
on a planet that insists
that love is like falling
and falling is like this

Feels like reckless driving when we're talking
It's fun while it lasts, and it's faster than walking
But no one's going to sympathize when we crash
They'll say "you hit what you head for, you get what you ask"
and we'll say we didn't know, we didn't even try
one minute there was road beneath us, the next just sky

I'm sorry I can't help you, I cannot keep you safe
I'm sorry I can't help myself, so don't look at me that way
we can't fight gravity on a planet that insists
that love is like falling
and falling is like this

-Ani DiFranco: Falling Is Like This

Our love, our laughter, our hearts, our brave little souls feel a little less lonely since we found each other and I thank this crazy world as much as I remember to - for this gift and blessing.  And our love feels the way I want all my loves to feel.  True.  Real.  Healthy.  Free.  Open and most of all, trusting.


This picture reminds me of her tapping on my shoulder, telling me to not give up.  To believe in love because in a lot of ways, her and I have both traded everything for love.  Except now, that we have learned to love ourselves a little more that when we were younger, it's trading up.

And no need to wait for Betty's answer - this love is what love stories are made of and words like forever don't have meaning.  The weight is only in the synchronicity that we feel together, always.

And Jess, whatever I traded - in this life or the last - for our love, was worth it's weight in gold...

And then some.

I love you.

8.09.2011

Octo-Pussy

Paris Kain: Octo-Pussy on Nowness.com.

Late night musings of an insomniac...apparently.

Paris Kain: Octo-Pussy

The Outré Designer Delves Into the Mystic In His Entangling Short Film

Stepping into the role of High Priestess, muse and artist Taiana Giefer gets intimately acquainted with a writhing octopus in multimedia artist Paris Kain's gnostic short film. A frequent runway collaborator of Alexander Wang and Francisco Costa, Kain is best known for his talismanic jewelry line Abraxas Rex, founded in 2007, in which he embeds materials including meteorites and dinosaur bones into gold and platinum-silver alloy. With Octo-Pussy he expounds upon his favored themes of mysticism and the occult. "In tarot, the octopus represents insight and esoteric vision. It is in constant motion, waxing and waning to the moon and guided by its goddess the High Priestess," he says. We asked Kain to take us behind the scenes.
STATS FROM ON SET
Essential ingredients: A brave muse, a badass production team, and a seven-pound cephalopod mollusc of the order “Octopoda.”
Understudy: One smaller teenage octopus who wouldn’t stop texting, so we ate him too, but privately.
Inspiration: The alchemical ‘great work’ and life journey of Alejandro Jodorowsky and Pascale Montandon. To quote Jodorowsky, "In the tarot, the octopus with its eight legs represents the perfection of the unconscious, transcending or extending beyond the limits of the personal or individual."
Soundtrack: I composed the music, wanting the eerie repetitive sounds to take the audience into a hypnotic state. Unfortunately, while we were editing the film, hearing those sounds over and over again for many hours, we fought very hard to not lose control of our minds.
High Priestess attire: Rick Owens spring 2011 black leather shoulder dress.
Palate cleanser: Taiana had a cherry lollipop after the octopus because that’s just what a High Priestess does.
Shoot time: We did it in one take. And then we shot the other six films that belong to the series.
Acting secret: The octopus that appears in the film is actually dead. - Nowness

There's nothing like an attractive female painted blue with a dead octopus to keep me awake.... mmmm, Rick Owens black leather shoulder dress.  *heart*

Sleep well babies...this week is gonna be a heavy one.  I can feel it.

xoxo

8.07.2011

Monochrome


'A gentle advancement would be so much more profound.' - Splashdown

i get the feeling
that you've got the feeling
that you can 
take
as you wish
what you wish
when you wish
and if you cannot wait
your actions in such haste
you will hustle me along
at your desired pace
shuffling me
into decision
and actioning me
to look into your eyes
as you please
which is not organic
or of pleasure
to me

however

when in the company
of Jamesen
and dirty old men
all of my senses
fall to my feet
and more pointedly
my sensibilities
tend to lean towards
seeking attention.
from those who paint me with red
from those who want to objectify me
for the spilt liquor on my skin
for the lack of length in my short shorts
for the lack of patience in my motion
for the other of my Gemini side
that responds to this with
a flashy
teethy smile
even though
it is not these things that win my heart
it is that
unsaid
undemanded
untaken
undone

with a gentle advancement
and soft touch
respect
patience

for me to moan and sigh
at my own
baby step pace

otherwise
you will fall under the category
of monochrome
just like the rest of em

Shadows

This was something that I acquired through a break-up.  It's one of my most favorite things.  It's old and the paint is chipping and I love it.

My Boyfriend



I have been in this relationship for almost 6 years
And it has broken me down
Built me up
Beat me here, there and everywhere
Given me gifts that I could never have dreamed of
Told me secrets
Told me lies
Crept up on me like a bad drunk
And lulled me to sleep after a hard days work

It has never let me down
When I needed to be picked up
It will always indicate a time in my life
When I really dug my hands in the earth of my soul
To see what I could grow
When I took chances for chances sake
Won some
Lost more
But never regretted a thing

I have met some of THE MOST incredible human beings because of it
I have cried the most tears on this shoulder
I have laughed my belliest laugh because of it
I have made more love than hate in this house

And when I hear people bitch about it
I reply:
Ain't NO ONE gonna talk about my Boyfriend like that

Montreal

Second To None


Vacation



































So, I have been away on vacation for about a week.  My lack of posts are due to my wild sense of anxiety about getting ready for my trip.  And now that it's over.....I wish I was still in BC.  I grew up in British Columbia, so being there feels like being home.  The beautiful landscape, the clean air, the water, nature.....all of it.  Sometimes I dream about moving back there.  And it's such a beautiful dream.  My heart was born there.  My physical body was born there.  My grandfather and uncle are both mechanics.....maybe that's why I have a fascination with broken down trucks......or maybe it's just cause they're real pretty.

Regardless, it was a dreamy trip.

Full of insights into myself.  That I wouldn't trade for the world.

The heart of life is good.